Today's mood: lonely and depressed.

Work was slow today. I work at a local coffee shop now, in case anyone cares. At any rate, apparently my depression or self-deprecating nature is affecting the other employees at work. Guess I am going to have to work on that.

For the most part I get along with my coworkers, except for this one girl. I won't say her name, but suffice it to say that she treats me without even the most basic courtesy or civility. She is all like, "Tim, stop apologizing to me!" But, if she weren't such a...well, better not say it, else risk setting back my growth in my faith. I guess I need to just avoid her. But, is it too much for me to want at least a basic friendliness from her. I'm not asking to be her best friend or anything. But, she treats total strangers better than I do. And as for bringing personal baggage to work, she is ok to customers unless she is in a bad mood, in which case she treats everyone like a...well, you know.

Otherwise, it's been a rather uneventful day. Don't know why I'm feeling down. Oh well, such is the nature of human life, I suppose.

Wow, I haven't updated this thing in the better part of a year or soemthing. Well, a lot has changed now. I'm back home in Rock Hill. After the initial blow up fro my folks about the quitting GT thing, they are supportive of me in my new endeavor. I am now at the local tech school getting certified in computer networking, the Cisco and Microsoft tracks (CCNA and MCSE/MCSA respectively).

Emily and I broke up about 3 or 4 moths ago after 18 months together. Don't really know why we broke up, but I do know that it was and is for the best. A lot better to break up before marriage than after getting married to someone. I should know, being the child of divorced parents. It's hell on the kids. I would rather remain single the rest of my life than go through that.

Not seeing anyone right now, as much as I may want a special girl in my life. But, what else is new? I've been on a few dates, butmost of them went south. Except for this one girl I went out with this week. She is really nice and fun to be around (and quite attractive to boot). She says she doesn't want a romantic relationship now, which is ok. I mean, one shouldn't want that sort of realtionship with anybody until he/she gets to know that person.

Well, it's late. Better hit the hay. Work in the morning and all that.

Whew, it has been a LONG time since I updated this thing. A lot has changed in my life. I am now back home and am in my second semester at a local technical college, trying to get into the local university and major in computer science. By leaving GT, I put myself about a year behind schedule, but I am glad. I hated it down there. I do miss my friends there. Oh well.

Anyways, I am doing well, just trying to work my way through college. Emily and I are great; we just celebrated our one-year anniversary last month. Only a year has passed? Hmm.

Well, spring classes start tomorrow, and I have to get up early. Later.

Oh, by the way, I forgot to mention this in my lasty post, but the times at which it says the posts are made are in Pacific Time, which is three hours behind Eastern Time. FYI.

Man, it's been a while since I've been able to update this thing, what with finals coming up and all. Aside from a headache, today is going well. I'm a little worried about my finals, but I'll do what I can. Besides, in the long run, is it really that important? I mean, yeah I want to be successful at whatever I choose to do with my life, but success isn't everything. Well, lemme clarify that. I mean success in the world's eyes isn't everything. In other words, I'd rather be a success in God's eyes and fufill the plan he has for my life than make tons of money.

I really miss Emily, but I'll get to see her soon enough.

It's kinda odd, but all my friends at CCF are trying to talk me out of leaving. But my mind is made up. I'm leaving. But they talk as if I am dying or something. Well, I am far from dead, my friends. Not yet at least. Anyhoo, I'm not making a mistake in leaving. The only mistake I made was not leaving sooner. Oh well, hindsight is always 20/20 isn't it?

Man, I really need to sell my paintball gun. I want to build a new system for myself, but no one seems to want my gun. Even if I decide on holding off on building a new computer, I could use the money. Oh well, I trust it will work out one way or the other. I love paintball, and I hate to have to get out of it, but it is just getting too darned expensive, especially for the little amount I get to play.

Well, I had a great weekend. Got a lot of stuff taken care of, as well as spend quality time with my family and Emily. I also got some real food for a change. Dad made some awesome ribs Saturday evening for supper.

I also got to see the new addition to our family for the first time: Sophia Grace, my new half sister. She is a cute one, and a fairly quiet baby as far as babies go. She is just over a week old. Funny thing is, when she goes to college, I'll be pushing forty...ouch.

Only 2 more weeks until I am out of this infernal institute. Good-bye Tech!

I am really looking forward to the summer. Working at my job with Duke, spending time with Emily (oh yeah, you can bet on it), hanging with my brother, and spending time with my family, whom I rarely get to see, even more so since I started college.

Well, it's a new day, and I'm busy as always. Later.

Whew, what a day. I feel exhausted, no matter how much sleep or how many naps I get. But, I am heading home this weekend. Not really looking forward to the drive, but it'll be worth it. Not only do I get to move some of my junk home (saving Dad a trip with the truck) and get some real food and get to see my family, but I also get to spend precious time with Emily.

Bible study tonight at CCF was good, but I had trouble staying awake from my lack of sleep. Man, I really should get some more sleep.

And I am NOT looking forward to finals, but oh well. They are inevitable. I am just eager to end my career at Tech and start anew, whether it be at Clemson or a community college or what not.

I sure do miss my friends from high school. But sometimes when we are hanging out, I feel a lack of connection. Maybe because of the identity shock Tech afforded me. In high school, I was the brains, plain and simple. I mean, that was just who I was--how I defined my existence. But now that has changed. Since I stink at school now, I had to look to another source for self worth and significance...God. Only He is eternal and permanent and immutable. No matter what happens in this life on Earth, I have peace in that He will never leave nor forsake me. I just wished I had learned this sooner.

Well, I am getting tired. That's all for tonight.

Well, here it is. I have decided to start a weblog (or, blog) as an online journal. Not quite sure why. Perhaps someone will benefit from my story. If it makes a positive difference in one person's life, then great. If not, then maybe it'll be good for a laugh.

So, anyhoo, where do I start? A little about myself, perhaps? Ok. I'm currently a nuclear engineering student at Georgia Tech. However, this is my last semester here. Several factors have prompted me to transfer. On the one hand, I am excited about leaving GT, which I am not too fond of, but on the other, part of me is worried. What will I major in at Clemson (the school I'm transferring to)? What am I going to do for the rest of my life? But you know, I just got to have faith. Faith that it will all work out according to God's plan. And you know what, for the first time, I am finally glimpsing that reality.

Hobbies...well, I'm into paintball, computers, video games, hanging out, etc. ad nauseum. I also am an aspiring bass player, although I don't practice nearly as often as I should. I also try to be a well rounded individual, with such interests as music, literature, art, cars, planes, and so on. I am equally content with hanging with my friends or a quiet evening at home.

Well, that's about all for now. I have so much to do before finals. Also, I want to chat with my girlfriend, whom I can't wait to see again. I love you, Emily.